my therapist said it's a lesson
the more something happens over and over i become less surprised each time. i've been through this same sequence of events before. i meet someone, they treat me better than the last (which usually isn't much as the bar is set fairly low.) i tell everyone around me that this time its different. that this one won't end the same. and yet after a while, something happens whether that be they find someone or something new they move away, or they say they aren't ready for a relationship. and so i cry and grieve before its even over as i already know what to expect. people seem to have a hard time saying what they want. so they wait it out until you make the decision for them. when i feel im no longer appreciated in a situation i pull away. they seem to find it easier to cut things off after that. and there it is the big "no contact" so i keep it short and sweet. i've already explained multiple times how they had made me feel over the drawn out months of them w